Note: This was written last Monday. At the the first part. I know, I know. I said I was going to update every day. However, a four day absence isn’t nearly as bad as a month or more one! You have to give me credit for that, at least. Besides, I was busy this weekend. Saturday I accompanied Chi to buy new tires, as Johnny (her car. We will elope one day. I love love love driving Johnny around, and I kind of hate driving in traffic. He’s special, though. Pontiac G5. And more fly than a G6.), and then her mother bribed us with Chinese food to assist in setting up for the church dinner. Sunday was a lazy day. We had every intention of getting up early to go to church, but the bed was warm and comfy and snuggly. Also, we ended up eating brunch with the roommates.
It’s odd. I call them “the roommates” as if they were my roommates. I suppose they technically are, with as much time as I spend over there. We just go from one house to the other, flitting like butterflies. I get all the benefits of living with a fantastic group of people with the ability to run away if I need some quiet Miss Eliza time. No matter how many bedrooms, a house of five twentysomethings and three cats will be noisy.
Ahem. Enough rambling. I have <s>four</s> a lot of days to catch up on, and I somehow managed to get approximately four hours of sleep last night, and am planning to wake up around 4:30 Tuesday morning to catch the peak of the Geminid meteor shower. Chi somehow managed to fall asleep around 8. I, obviously, have not.
December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)
I feel like a broken record. I’ve been talking a bit about the move and The Upheaval here as of late. However, I will say moving back to Texas has been the wisest decision I’ve made this year. I left a toxic situation, a climate I abhorred, yet managed to gain in friends, love, confidence, and the parts of me that I had hidden for so long. Granted, there was a lot of tears, a massive amount of heartache and pain, some growing, and leaving of very dear friends, but it was the best decision I’ve made in a very long time.
December 11 – 11 Things What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)
- What-ifs. I let them run around wild in my head. I will focus on today, and the future, and not fret about the past. It is done.
- Solitude. I have a tendency to hide when I’m upset, which makes me even more upset, which makes me want to hide. I will go out and be amongst people, especially when I am not doing well. That leads to…
- Depression. It’s true, it is a battle. But I am well-armed, and I have people that have my back if I need it. I may not win the battle, but I will win the war.
- Silence. Too long have I stayed silent when things upset me. Now, I will be upfront about something that bothers me, but nonconfrontational.
- Stillness. I will dance, do yoga, get a bike and ride it, knit more. I do not do well when my body is still and my mind is overactive.
- Self-hatred. See 3. Hatred may be too strong a word. Deprecation, then. Negative thoughts about myself will be banished as soon as they are thought.
- Stagnation. I will continue to evolve, to grow, to blossom.
- Self-denial. I will not deny myself experiences, things, feelings, because of my weight, or my timidness, or anything else that pops into my head. If I want to do something, and it harms no one, I shall do it. Who cares what anyone else thinks, anyway? They don’t matter. If they did matter in my life, then they would support me.
- Anger. While I cannot stop anger completely, I can, however, realize when it is not necessary.
- Drama. Lord knows I’ve had more than my share of drama this year.
- Procrastination. I put things off. Everyone does. However, I have made it an artform. No more, I think.
December 12 – Body Integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)
Oh dear me, yes. However, I feel the answer is rather inappropriate for public consumption. Sorry, loves.
December 13 – Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)
Do. It. It doesn’t really get much more simple than that. Do what I should do. Do what I need to do. Act more, worry less.
December 14 – Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)
Myself, plain and simple. I’m quite awesome, you know. So are you, as a matter of fact. You should appreciate yourself more, too. Take yourself out on a nice date, read a book, take a bubble bath.
The next one looks like it will take up a bit of spacetime, so I shall do that one later. There’s much more catching up to do, so expect me to be a bit more talkative than I have been.
It looks like you and I had the same thought when it came to the body integration prompt. It took great willpower to steer myself in another direction
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As for sounding like a broken record, I have felt the same way when answering my prompts. If this writing challenge had come in June rather than December, then I suspect that my answers would have been vastly different. However, for the past three months multiple sclerosis has been in my thoughts daily and it seems to color everything I do, including my writing. Hopefully that will pass soon.
Looking at the prompts left to go, I feel that more of them will be similar, which is making me want to stop doing this. :/